It’s officially 2019.
I remember going from 1999 to 2000 like it was yesterday. There was hustle and bustle about the new millennium coming and fear spread worldwide about the computers doing some kind of reset. I was only 12 at the time so I don’t remember what we were specifically afraid of. (Haha!) But fast forward nineteen years and here we are! Time sure does fly by.
I used to make new year’s resolutions
mainly because I felt like I was required to, not because I wanted to. I would make a resolution of something random I wanted to improve on and never stick with it. Literally, I wouldn’t even make it a day on keeping my resolutions. Therefore, they were always somewhat of a joke in my mind.
Until last year.
I vowed to make a change in my life: to make decisions that would make for a happier life. But I didn’t start this resolution in the new year, I began it in November. I decided that the change needed to happen immediately and to wait for the new year would only cause procrastination, which in turn would lead to nothing ever happening.
Because of my decision to make that change right in the moment, I am in a completely different place in my life. Last year, I was determined to set my life in motion to please God in everything I did. My passions began to shift, I grew tremendously in my spiritual life, and I learned what it meant to truly live for God.
I am choosing to live by the word Courage. I’m developing the courage to step out in faith and pursue what God is calling me to do despite the fear in fulfilling those goals. Over the past few months, I have been battling the lie in my mind that I’m not good enough, that I’ll never live up to my standards of perfection. When I rely on those statements, I shrink into myself and let go of what I know I’m supposed to be pursuing. I allow the doubt to settle into my being which turns into anxiety and a slight form of depression. This is because I know I’d never be able to accomplish these major goals on my own. However, when I allow God’s quiet, but powerful promises to fill my mind, His strength and will take precedence. I’m able to push forward in things I never would have been able to accomplish in my own strength.
I have no idea what this year is going to look like,
but I’m very excited for it. I can’t wait to see what God has planned! If you’ve chosen a word for the year, or if you’ve made a resolution, let me know what they are in the comments! We can encourage each other throughout the year. I pray 2019 brings you blessings.